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Jun. 4th, 2011 04:58 pm I need and honest assessment

I'm feeling a bit out of sorts at the moment. I had a "moment" yesterday where everything just caught up to me I felt overwhelmed. I hate admitting I need help, but I do. I think I'm going to seek out and employment counselor or a place that can help me with my cover letters and resumes. It's tough doing this alone without anybody to give me feedback or who I can turn to for some guidance. I have no idea if the way I'm going about this job hunt is correct or not and if I'm serious about staying here then I need to get some proper guidance and assistance. Maybe I'll go visit Global Vocational when I get back home. I need to know what skills I need to work on too. I NEED someone to give me an honest assessment.

Current Location: Victoria
Current Mood: melancholymelancholy
Current Music: Price Tag - Jessie J

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May. 27th, 2011 10:23 am Highly Motivated

Since returning home after the massive earthquake in Japan, I've got a newfound sense of motivation to stay in Canada. The earthquake and radiation fear shook me more than I thought and I realized I didn't want to die in a place where I didn't feel I was at my best. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy teaching, but it wasn't leaving me feeling very fulfilled. I originally took global studies and anthropology in university because I have a genuine interest and passion for helping people and making the world a better place to live. I learned so much while I lived and worked in Japan and now I want to find a position that utilizes my skills, knowledge, experience and education. So, I've contacted a couple of non-profits to volunteer in order to gain some more experience, feel a sense of purpose and do some networking.

Even though I don't want to teach overseas anymore, I have a job in the works for a public school teaching position in South Korea. It doesn't start until late August, so I've given myself until mid-August to find a job here, otherwise I have to go where the money is. Adding to this, a friend has offered to rent me a room in his new condo for a really great price. Now I'm even more motivated to stay here!!

If I stay, I'd like to become a social worker and am looking at applying to UVic. The application is for November with a May start date. I can do most of it on line and work, so that appeals to me.

I've also been learning a lot about social media and find it very fascinating and a bit addictive. Twitter is my new favourite site, but I still enjoy Facebook. I have a new interest in becoming a social media manager or at least using social media in a position that makes a positive difference locally and globally.

Current Location: Canada, Victoria
Current Mood: jubilantjubilant
Current Music: Lights - Kanye West

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Mar. 9th, 2009 07:04 pm

I visited Mariko in Hachinohe over the weekend and had a good time. We went to karaoke for 3 and half hours...sooo much fun!! It was so good to just hang out with a friend and talk about movies, music, books, teaching and other peeps. Even though it was only overnight, I still felt like I was on vacation...Yay!! If I get the job in Fukuoka, she'll have to come visit me there. Speaking of which, I will find out this Friday if I got the job. I don't feel great about the phone interview and wish I could do it over again. Oh well, at least I know better for next time. Mariko is pretty sure I'll get it. She also told me to say no to Osaka if they offer it. Apparently the teacher just quit because the owner is difficult to work for and the schedule is shit. I guess I'll just tell them the only city I want is Fukuoka and see what happens. At this point I'm almost ready to go home to Canada and take a bit of break and maybe try for something new in a couple of months. Unfortunately my bank account doesn't allow for that, so I would just stick it out here and try to find something new.

Regardless if I get a new job or not, I think I'm gonna do some spring cleaning soon. When I do leave, I don't want to have to deal with so much stuff. I also need to work on my workshop for this month and study/review Japanese. Time to make out a to do list :).

The new guy starts today and Drew says the schedule is pretty nice, but I'm not sure I believe him. He said I have a progress report to do, but that can change if a student decides to book in. I'll go in early and check it out.

It's sunny today!! YAY!!! I'm tired of winter and want spring!!

Current Location: sofa

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Apr. 21st, 2008 12:11 am Work is shit, but there is hope for the future

Well, I finally have my 2 day weekend back after working 6 days a week for the last 2 weeks. I can't even say I worked overtime because our company is not paying overtime anymore, but giving days in lieu instead. So, my days in lieu are for Golden Week. They're only "giving" us 3 days off for GW this year. It's so sucky!!

I started teaching Nova lessons last week, so that was added stress to an already stressful week. I think the system is fairly easy, but I'm not familiar with all the lessons yet, so it takes me a while to choose a lesson. They have so much information for each of their lessons...too much.

I've been thinking a lot about moving to Korea where my friend Joanne is working. She's told her bosses about me and they want to hire me. If I can make it to the end of my contract in November then I think I'll go there. I may end up there sooner as we are losing 2 teachers at the end of May/beginning of June and we're not getting anymore teachers. The amount of students per teacher is going to go up from about 60 to over 100. I'm not looking forward to the increased workload. I might have to stop doing extra things for work at home because it might be too much.

I'm debating about going to visit Korea and getting a firsthand look at the school, meeting the bosses and maybe observing some lessons. I'd rather spend my money on something else or going somewhere else, like China. I'm thinking of booking some holidays for the end of July and heading to China with Joanne. I gotta look into some flight deals. Wish me luck!!

Current Music: Cosmic - Kylie Minogue

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Jan. 26th, 2008 04:56 pm The Past Week

Wow!! This week went by fast. We were supposed to have Nova training on Thursday, but there was a bad storm and trains were cancelled from Sapporo to Hakodate. Now the training is next Thursday. Should be fun!! We're also getting another Nova teacher next week. After she comes we won't get anymore teachers from Sapporo. Then Chris and I have to train Drew and Julia to teach EC. Should be fun!!

I was still a bit bitchy this week, but I'm getting better. I just find I'm getting pissed off very easily latley. Must be my time of the month. Mariko told me to eat some chocolate :)

I called Dustin last Sunday. It's the first time we've talked in about a year. We've emailed each other, but haven't heard each other's voices in about a year. It was kinda strange and a bit awkward. I felt like he didn't really want to talk to me. I felt like he was holding back. We managed to chat for about a half an hour before he had to go as he was at work and on a break. I didn't get the chance to talk to him about our break up and each taking responsibilty for it. When we broke up he put it all on me because I was the one who chose to live in another country. But we talked about it before I left and decided to try to keep up the long distance relationship and he would come and visit me. He forgot that part of it and kept telling me that I was the one who chose to go. I knew he was in a fragile state and decided to just take it and not respond. But now he's in a happy place with a new b/f and I think he needs to hear my side of it. He needs to realize that I made the decision to leave based on our discussions. He needs to know that I held up my end and he was the one who backed out. For me that means the responsibility for our split was 50/50. He was also the only person I didn't get to see when I was home for Christmas. He said he was really busy, but after talking to him and knowing him, I think he was afraid to see me. Maybe I'll just email him with my side of it and get it off my chest. I told him I'd call him again sometime, but I'm not too sure about that.

Current Mood: hungryhungry

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Nov. 19th, 2007 04:49 am

Well, it's been quite a while since I've written anything. I guess my main concern right now is with work and how the merger between EC and Nova is going to play out. Our sign changed Saturday night. Weird! I wonder when Nova students are going to start coming to EC and how it's all going to work. I'm also maybe going to Sapporo for a yearly training session, but I don't really want to. I need to prep for a workshop I have the next day and I'd rather stay here and do stuff around the office. It's going to be very tiring travelling there and back in one day.

I also had vacation and went to Kyoto, Hiroshima, Miyajima and Osaka. I loved the narrow streets and old wooden homes in Kyoto. The temples weren't too bad either. It was also great drinking a caramel frappuccino and watching people walk by. In Hiroshima I was impressed by how well the museum is organized and how much information is given. There was lots to read and see. I'm so glad I went. It was a pretty heavy day emotionally though. Miyajima was also very beautiful and the weather was perfect. The tide was out so I got to walk out to the big red gate. The whole area was beautiful. I wish I'd had more time to check it all out. I only spent the night in Osaka and that's where I decided to check out the gay bars. I managed to meet a few cool people, get drunk and go to bed at 3:30am.

I'm excited to go home for Christmas and spend time with my family and friends. I still need to do some Christmas shopping for a few people. Maybe next weekend. I've also decided to buy some cheap decorations from the hyakuen store and decorate my apartment. I already have some Christmas spirit and listened to Christmas songs yesterday. It is my favourite time of year. Having snow helps too. We had our first dump last night and today : ). I need to buy a new winter coat too.

I'm also a bit concerned about a friend of mine back in Canada who is having mental health problems right now. She called me last night and talked for over and hour. Some things she said were good and made sense and then other things were off. She was kinda all over the place with her thoughts and I didn't know what to believe. She didn't sound suicidal, but I know she's thought about it before. I'm just worried that if her situation doesn't get any better then she may take drastic measures. I've already had one friend who was bipolar kill herself, I don't need another. It's a sad situation and I don't know what can be done to help her. I hope she gets on the proper drugs and has a good doctor to talk to.

I'm gonna watch a movie or read to escape a bit. Today is normally my day off, but I worked so I'm all screwed up and think it's Tuesday.

Current Mood: worriedworried
Current Music: You Were Meant for Me - Jewel

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Sep. 26th, 2007 07:40 am Great great great!!

Well, I emailed my boss to let him know that if they can't let me go home for Christmas then I'll have to quit and go home in early December. It felt really good and gave me a sense of relief. I've sort of made peace with my choices. If I go home that's great, if I stay that's great too. I'm ok either way. It's a great feeling, like a big weight has been lifted off of me. I realize I'm not a good teacher and am easily replaceable (and I'm ok with that), especially with the current Nova situation. A part of me is hoping they say no and I go home in early December and a part of me is hoping they say ok and I get to spend another 6 months here. Anyways, I'm much happier and less stressed.

Current Mood: relievedrelieved
Current Music: Gimme! Gimme! Gimme! - ABBA

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Sep. 24th, 2007 07:56 pm Good weekend

I had a pretty good weekend. On Saturday night Casey, Tomoko and I went to Bagus for some drinks. I met a guy who wants to practice English with me. He's going back to San Francisco in a couple of months. We exchanged phone numbers, but not sure if I'm gonna call him. He's cute, but has a girlfriend in San Fran.

On Sunday, Ben, Chihiro and I hung out and wandered to Penguin's Valley, a beautiful area with cliffs and a very rocky beach. Casey joined us later as we were watching the sunset. It was so beautiful. Casey and I went for some food at California Baby then went to the foot onsen. It felt so nice on my feet after walking much of the day. I came home to change and meet up with Casey again, but I was exhausted and bailed.

On Monday, I got some shit done around my apt. and on the computer, then met Casey at the park to study. The weather is definitely getting cooler. We decided to rent some movies, so I stopped off at home and put on my hoodie (it was that cold), then we set off for Tsutaya. I rented 4 movies and the latest Amuro Namie CD. Casey went home to eat then came over about 8:30. We watched X-Men 3 and Snakes Flight. X-Men 3 was disappointing, but Snake Flight was a pretty good B movie. Some great lines delivered.....sooooo cheesy!! I loved it!!

I finished Desperate Housewives this morning and am ready to start on a new series. Should I watch Brothers and Sisters, Weeds or Dexter? Too many choices.

Current Mood: optimisticoptimistic
Current Music: Brand New Lover - Dead or Alive

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Sep. 22nd, 2007 07:08 pm Beautiful day

It's a beautiful day here today and I think I might go down to the bay area and wander around and take some pics. I love it down there and have been telling myself that I need to go there more often.

Work is better lately. I find that talking to different teachers from Sapporo helps to relieve some of the stress. I'm still seeking that balance of having a good time at work and still doing my job without stressing too much. I finally called my boss last week and told him I want to stay longer and he asked if I could stay until the end of June, so I said yes. I also told him I need to go home for Christmas and he said he'd talk to the coordinators about it. I need to write him an email stating clearly that if he can't let me go home for Christmas then I'll have to quit. I'm really hoping we can work something out. I'll be easily replaceable if NOVA shuts down many of it's schools.

Japanese class is going ok, but I'm the slowest one. I get totally lost sometimes, but I'm gonna keep going. I'm still trying to figure out the best method for studying. It's overwhelming sometimes, so I just don't study. I need to pick a method of studying and stick with it.

I've finally figured out how torrents work for downloading, so I've downloaded a few movies and TV programs. It's awesome! I have 4 episodes of Desperate Housewives left, then I'm gonna start Brothers and Sisters. I've also downloaded Weeds and Dexter.

Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Current Music: Return of the Mack - Mark Morrison

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Sep. 12th, 2007 06:28 am Mah Jong night

It's mah jong night and Casey, Ben, Dan and Tomoko are sitting around my table while I'm on the computer. I should be studying or reading, but I'm on here. I'm feeling less stressed lately at work and as a result am having more fun. I called my boss today and told him I wanted to stay another 6 months after my contract ends, but I had to go home for Christmas. He asked me if I could stay an extra month and told me he had to talk to the coordinators about Christmas. I hope it all works out. I told him I could stay an extra month or 2 if needed. I've been thinking a lot about going back to school. I kinda miss it and masters doesn't take that much longer. Gonna get off of here and do something constructive!!

Current Mood: chipperchipper
Current Music: Superfreak

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